it might just all be a facade

Saturday, October 20, 2007;

♥ 10/20/2007 07:05:00 AM

Im a true pioneer
Crossing every new frontier
With conviction i take every turn
This passion i will hold
So that everyone may know
I believe while i live, i learn>>

Im a fairsian in my heart, a pioneer in my mind, but a jj-cian on the appearance.

School ended at one ~~freaking~~ pm for my class today. (: What joy.
It's O N E pm! In jc, you sledom get to be out of class, until maybe 2plus. Oh yeah, sure! If you have any lunch breaks, then maybe you're out of class, but not exactly out of class.
Mm, if you dont get what i mean, congrats. (: Youre normal, cos i dont exactly get it as well.

Stayed back with huiyee aaron and bryan. Had B&Js! :D How sinful! ):
And then huiyee and i were observing. How interesting it is to note that jjfranticscians are dominating the whole campus. ):
Okay, im not exactly anti-JJ. Alright, maybe just a little. All in all, im just not pro-JJ.
The environment, the people, and the teachers/principals. Seriously, the things that even make me bother dragging my weary feet to school are the few im-not-sure-if-they-are-true-but-i-just-seriously-enjoy-their-company friends, those fairsians, my classmates (maybe) and mm, i dunno alr. ):
Yes FYI. Fairfield, youre still missed, dearly
Its hard to just talk to someone in school/class. Cos bascially, you arent exactly close to anyone. Or maybe, superficially close. Like, yes. You can chitchat and hang around tgt, but you dont seem to find someone appropriate to actually TALK to. Like really, talk.
It'll seems uber weird, if you just happen to grab someone and say hey, let me tell your my problems. Weird huh. Afterall, it doesnt seems like they will care either! No one bother asking, and no one bother showing that they truly or fakely care. And yeah. ):

Okay, i want to catch a movie quite badly. ): Although i wanna save money at the same time.
I want to hang around with friendsoutside. Although i still wanna save money at the same time.
I want to chat with friends soon.
Mm, i wanna chill out with afew friends, just slack at someone's hse, watching dvd after dvd, and have snacks, and talkin and talkin. :D

Haha, it seems as though monday is gonna be a PW DAY for s07. (:

Westlife's 'Love Crime'
I didn't know what to say
I tried to look the other way
When I saw you there with ~~him~~her
Acting like I don't care
But you can read from how I stare
That I'm hurting deep inside
But even though you look so good tonight
I'll be fine

But I know that for you
To be here without me by your side
It's a love crime
Why you act so surprised
I can tell from the guilt in your eyes
It's a love crime to me

Love has never been good to me
Maybe it's just my destiny
To live my life alone
Who was I trying to fool
Thinking our love would break the rule
Still I'm standing on my own
And even though you look so good tonight
I'll be fine

But I know that for you
To be here without me by your side
It's a love crime
Why you act so surprised
I can tell from the guilt in your eyes
It's a love crime to me

Here I am not knowing
Tell me what to do
But I know that for you
To be here without me by your side
It's a love crime
Why you act so surprised
I can tell from the guilt in your eyes
It's a love crime to me

I skipped my dinner, and now. Im having terrible + horrible gastric pain. :'(

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.